maybe he should have expected it, maybe he should have tried to better prepare for the possibility (inevitability?), but... the truth is, it caught him completely off-guard. and he's been struggling through every following day in a thick sort of haze, knowing that there's a deep and aching grief waiting just beyond this numb insulation blanket of shock. suga's never been a pessimist, but there's a part of him that can't help but wonder -- is this how it's going to be in amoi? every time he opens his heart up to someone, they'll just... vanish?
he hasn't been able to stay by himself in the empty apartment ever since kazuya stopped coming home. thankfully, itsuki and mei have been kind enough to take him in; bundling up in the bed in a warm tangle of mei's limbs at least makes the night more bearable, and there's a certain solace in being close to someone who misses miyuki as much as he does. honestly, he was hoping that (maybe) this was all just temporary, that miyuki would show up any moment with a laugh and an easy excuse for where he's been, but... finally, the time has come to face facts. which is why suga's currently in miyuki's (former) apartment, slowly packing away his clothes and other scant possessions into a bag. he'll spend another few nights with itsuki and mei, let himself soak up as much comfort as he can, and then... it's back to midas, probably. the idea of another broken pet contract is honestly just too much to stand.
suga's been doing his best to put on a (relatively) brave face, but. here, alone in the apartment, slowly stripping himself out of the place, the tears are trying to fight their way to the surface. and when he hears a voice out in the hall, he assumes it's itsuki or mei come to look for him -- he quickly scrubs an arm across his eyes to hopefully erase all signs that he's been crying. ]
In here! [ his best attempt at a bright voice, even though it falls pretty short. ] I'm almost done.
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maybe he should have expected it, maybe he should have tried to better prepare for the possibility (inevitability?), but... the truth is, it caught him completely off-guard. and he's been struggling through every following day in a thick sort of haze, knowing that there's a deep and aching grief waiting just beyond this numb insulation blanket of shock. suga's never been a pessimist, but there's a part of him that can't help but wonder -- is this how it's going to be in amoi? every time he opens his heart up to someone, they'll just... vanish?
he hasn't been able to stay by himself in the empty apartment ever since kazuya stopped coming home. thankfully, itsuki and mei have been kind enough to take him in; bundling up in the bed in a warm tangle of mei's limbs at least makes the night more bearable, and there's a certain solace in being close to someone who misses miyuki as much as he does. honestly, he was hoping that (maybe) this was all just temporary, that miyuki would show up any moment with a laugh and an easy excuse for where he's been, but... finally, the time has come to face facts. which is why suga's currently in miyuki's (former) apartment, slowly packing away his clothes and other scant possessions into a bag. he'll spend another few nights with itsuki and mei, let himself soak up as much comfort as he can, and then... it's back to midas, probably. the idea of another broken pet contract is honestly just too much to stand.
suga's been doing his best to put on a (relatively) brave face, but. here, alone in the apartment, slowly stripping himself out of the place, the tears are trying to fight their way to the surface. and when he hears a voice out in the hall, he assumes it's itsuki or mei come to look for him -- he quickly scrubs an arm across his eyes to hopefully erase all signs that he's been crying. ]
In here! [ his best attempt at a bright voice, even though it falls pretty short. ] I'm almost done.